Last night Aby and i had a fight. I actually don't know why!!! until she texted me the reason why she is freakin mad. It is me listening to Senses Fail. Shallow isn't it? But she is really pissed. I can't believe it either. I don't know why but she thinks that I am carbon copying her which is not. If I know before that this would happen I never should have listened to Senses Fail and other emo bands. I only listened to them because she told me that they are a great band that's why I checked them out. But I never thought that the effect would be so miserable. Ya I think that they are great that's why I listen to them now.

We talked last night but I don't really know if were ok now. I wish that we can still figure this out. I can't afford to lose her. She is always there for me whenever I need someone to cry on. I was really hurt last night but what can i do. She is just expressing what she felt. The only thing that i know is to cry since I can't control it.

I know that you hate me! But I hate more myself now than ever before. I just want to die for now. Now I'm afraid to listen to emo and other genre of music which will make me happy. I just don't want another fight like this. It is getting us nowhere. I'm afraid to be happy anymore. Whenever I'm happy there comes a certain point that I am sad again. Maybe if I will be sad again just like always there's no way that I'm gonna be hurt again.